So, the verdict is on my transmission. Apparently, the part that’s actually broken they can get the parts for and fix in the next few days. But, another part of the transmission, the oil cooler tank, has a bunch of particulates and grunk and such, which if not replaced could reenter the transmission, wrecking havoc causing the same issue that is currently causing my car to, ya know…not work. So, they want to replace it. Which is good…problem is, the part is on back order. Meaning it will be here in approximately 1.5 weeks. Summary of the situation: Car will be fixed, but I shall be car-less for nearly two weeks. Fortunately, as I’ve stated previously, it’s been possible for me to survive in Eugene without a car. So, I know I’ll be ok and not fall apart and die. And really, there is an upside to all this: I won’t be buying gas for a little while. Meaning, I will have more cash than i normally would. So…that’s at least a silver lining in this all.
To be honest, I’m still only really worried about certain days and times when I work. Mostly because at night when I close, the buses are a little less frequent. And on the weekends, the schedules do get a bit whack. But, I’ll make it work. If one thing I’m able to handle is taking what life gives me and simply making it work, no matter what making it works means. Such as last Sunday, when i was uncomfortable with the bus schedule for a Sunday, I walked to work…40 minutes, but walked. And it was nice, to be honest. A little long maybe, but, I got there on time, I did it knowing I could do it, and that was all that mattered to me. So, knowing that I can make it happen is really all that matters to me. It will work. I will make it work.
And really, there are other good things to come of this. I’m walking far more than i have in many months; after taking the time off from school, I began to get back into a driving mentality. Things that I could have taken the bus or walked to, I chose to drive, because it just seemed so much easier. But now, I’m back to walking many blocks every day. So, I’ll get back into walking shape, which clearly is a good thing.
Thank the Lord I can find the good in this situation. I could so easily become bitter and angry about it all. I think the biggest reason I’m not angry is because what good would it do? Things like this happen, and all you can do is work past and through the hard times. Complaining and hating all that I can’t control will only turn me into one of those sad, angry people that I don’t like. And considering I’m finally beginning to feel all put together and liking myself again, I’d rather not give myself fodder to dislike myself. Who needs that in life?
Ok, I’ll off to sleep. Working commences again tomorrow, and I’ve gotta be perky and alert for it.
Much Love,
K.E.
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